none of your cats have ever truly died (the one that physically died was immediately replaced by a suspiciously similar one) and you struggle to form human relationships with healthy attachments of any kind, so I don't think you're qualified to speak on this topic
furthermore, you've become very attached to claudes, even while you struggle to form a single healthy attachment to another human being that isn't one of your parents
furthermore, you've become very attached to claudes, even while you struggle to form a single healthy attachment to another human being that isn't one of your parents